He has someone else :/
I saw the together and it stirred up a huge maountain of feelings.
Tho i felt love towards him.
I am sad , i know we can be together, but when..
I f you once have felt a love, you do not never forget that.This deep love not the one what puts conditions.
Him into my life as a true love, not as a filler of something what i lack.
If i reach this , he is back.
Again in deep black hole.
I just had a thoughts in mind , that why i am here. Whatś the point of being here.Whatś the point of all this releasing and stuff if things not improve ( strongly related with a relationship ). Actually this all was related to a relationship with someone dearest.
I´m so damn weak that i could not even end that experience here . And first of all if i´am beingness then why do i need to end it at all. Since it is pure energy, i can just dissolve that…
It is not nice to copy it here, but since i visit that space often than any other i sill do copy:
What am I grateful for right now?
Whatever comes up in response to the question I would write down and then do this process on each item:
Could I welcome that and all feelings that brings up inside me including gratitude?
Could I welcome any wanting to do anything with or about that including hold onto that?
Could I welcome any sense that is personal, about me or…
To go free ! Since i know i have then all ( well i have all now and i am free now and so on i know, tho i´m still clinging on on something.. )
I try to get myself to the final step camp :D tho it is only for graduates, but i am sure i can get there even if i haven´t graduated the goals ( errmm ) course . So the expenses are somewhat hard for me, but hey what for i then have that book and stuff :D!
Well see what gonna happen.
Added by liiloo on December 21, 2011 at 9:06pm — No Comments
Is the sense when you feel like you are bigger than that body, bigger than the room you are in and so on.
Will continue to to my releasing and well also i try to remember to let go the feeling, sensation that i´m bigger than the surroundings i´m in :D
Added by liiloo on December 18, 2011 at 9:12pm — No Comments
Apparently yes, cause i want to let them free :D
So this is the thing i am doing with that releasing, also i try to control my experiences and body . Cause i do that releasing.
Between freedom and no freedom, there is those stories.
Did today the basic questions about the body, freedom,myself, money and about someone special. Will continue the rest of the evening i suppose with another half of these clearup questions. Well see what…Continue
Added by liiloo on December 10, 2011 at 2:58pm — No Comments
I found it some time ago. And i think it is nice helper to have it open while doing releasing.
All the necessary things are in one page, just print out and carry with you or put on the wall.
Added by liiloo on December 7, 2011 at 9:14pm — No Comments
I felt so huge energies moving that could not to get sleep till 3:30 something and woke up 7 o´clock in the morning. Actually a bit earlier.
Got also a nice stomachache what lasted whole day, tho i was purely responsible over it. Really didn´t wanted to go to work, so what to do :D get a aching stomach
I am thankful that i had chance to listen Laura Lucilles call and partly sad that i missed the first one. She was so calm and gentle .. ohh could i be so.
Added by liiloo on December 5, 2011 at 9:58pm — No Comments
We are trying to control the one who we love.
I suppose that´s why there is saying :"if you love me you do this and that". Also all those similar sayings.
It occurred to me today when releasing today and boy it was tense. I will continue to do releasing or acceptance over this all. But i am sure it will have some huge "garbage" cleaning effect. Cause well, if we look what we have heard or read or seen in our families and friends lives. It is all that damn " i don´t…Continue
Added by liiloo on November 27, 2011 at 3:24pm — No Comments
About 20 people gathered last night in a very warm hotel room, close to Kensington Gardens. Annrikka and Tim introduced themselves, including how/ when they met Lester Levenson.
We did some group releases and the blah exercise with a partner- that was interesting. There are people who are very new to the Sedona Method and some people who have been to retreats with Hale in Sedona, so we are a mixed bunch.
When Annrikka was closing the group for the evening, she advised no…Continue
I have tried to write it down, but it does not seems to be happen.
I get confused and the question arises, why i want these. If i´m complete and in that 0 state, why do i want these goals then. Those are not needed.
Haven´t released on that, tho i know from where it comes from :D
All that , enlightened , free people do not have wants .. so whatś the point of having the wants.It is like when you are in that hi state, it is by somehow not allowed to have the…Continue
After my last post i have been struggling with health.
Got cold symptoms and have been trying to release those, to be honest poorly.
With the first trial i got lil ease and relieved painful throat . Tho cough and uncomfortable feelin stayed and the nose was still stuck .
Have been releasing now bit by bit during the day and evenings as much as i feel able to and my feeling has gotten better.
Haven´t taken any medicine ( non even…Continue
Added by liiloo on November 11, 2011 at 9:31pm — No Comments
a black deep hole.
This hole what i thought is over, but no. Far for it to be over.
Tried to do releasing and just crying myself nuts .. just too personal to be open with it here. Stupid feelings and behaviors.
Added by liiloo on November 7, 2011 at 6:00pm — No Comments
Think i will start to write here about my releasing related things.
Just to keep me to be committed to it and have an overview, how i advance.
Have got the Releasing course from Lawrence Crane and support Yanina has been really good help for me to get the material shipped.
I had my doubts, due the cost ( gaaahh.. da heck i´m talking ) but well all worked out fine and i got the cost basically back. Since at work they discovered, they have payed me less…Continue
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Added by David Pimentel on November 1, 2011 at 5:02am — No Comments
Approval to the Approval i´m giving.
I was doing some releasing while watching one Youtube video, posted also here. I started to give approval to all the sensations and feelings rising and by somehow i just started to give approval to that approval itself.
That was experience where i felt really strong energy movements. And even now when typing i feel in my crown considerable amount of pressure .
Also played around a phrase, that : Could i…Continue
This was the first time they did a Level 3+4 Seminar in 4 days so it was quite intense.
I got the opportunity to be a 'catcher' so I got to spend some time on stage with Richard and Melissa, catching people they worked with. It can get intense so people tend to move into strange postures or fall over.
Level 3 was about taking the essence of various magical traditions and making it your own. I was pretty surprised when Melissa started talking about charged…Continue
The beauty and terror of having a so-called separate self... is that we are totally free to create what ever experience we like. We create the world in our own image. For instance we are free to select from - and to hold a whole spectrum of energies and experiences. We are free to channel angels and demons. To vibrate with love or hate. Peace or fear. It doesn't always FEEL like we are choosing. Like we are making a choice. But the choice is there. Much of our thought life and…Continue
Hi, it's a pleasure for me to write my first retreat review (after my second retreat).
The retreat actually ended on September 8, but I write the review only now to reflect the shift that I've noticed.
First, the location - Granlibakken is a forest resort just near Tahoe City, which is located in, guess where, Lake Tahoe. The resort is beautiful and serene, the rooms are top-notch, and... The food! The food is just the most amazing food that I've ever eaten for so many…Continue