February 2012 Blog Posts (5)

i don´t know

and then from somewhere came, what is written below.

Be Nothing, Be All

Be Enlightement, Be the One

I was so angry and down, due all the ones who supposedly reached that Lester and Raman and Budha and all other just…

I today took all the relationships regarding males in my life and visualised all them in the ow as pictures and  started to forgive.

Then one by one i separately sed every person: i love you and forgive you.

I tooks the aroach as me ( egomind ) will forgive. Since i get diluted to that me as awareness and me as bodyegomind and it messes things up. Me as awareness do not to forgive, me as a awareness loves. Who needs to foribe is this egomind and final step is that there…

how can you lvoe someone fully, if you don't love yourself fully
truly.
When you emit love,love finds you. 

You are not releasing fully honey, and that is the problem.

How true it can be , no words but the realization what i got. Yes i do not. I left out some other parts. Maybe what i posted now will be helpful also to others.

I had chance to have 100 EUR bank note at home, so i thoght to use it as a trigger to bring up the money issues.

Also cince i needed to make today a prepayment, i felt it brought up really strong feelings.

So , wat i got the :D a control, i desperately want to control all money related. Fear, unsecurity and want aproval. That want aproval was a kind of surprise . Whos aproval do i nee , afterall :D

I went further, by asking : How do i feel of having the…